|  Masaru
Kato
MA, MPS
Enlightenment Coach
Spiritual Healer/Energy Healer
Psychic Reader
Licensed Massage Therapist (State of Illinois, NCBTMB)
Member of;
Associated Bodywork and Massage Professionals (ABMP)
International Association of Reiki Professionals (IARP)
About
Masaru Kato - Short Autobiography
Expansion and
the Presence/Infinite Non-dual Awareness
Since I seriously committed myself to my spiritual
evolution, I have experienced peak enlightening moments
for several times. I would like to share a few of them
which gave me quite significant breakthrough in my inner
growth in order to illustrate my current state of awareness.
The first significant conscious leap happened in November
2006. My physical sensation of space was totally changed.
I became able to sense the infinite expansion of my
awareness in me, on me and around me. I felt myself
expanding infinitely. The second incredible leap appeared
in June 2007. This added some qualitative changes on
my spacious expansion. My inner sensing or higher sensing
became so enriched that I became able to sink into the
non-dual state of awareness. I realized my infinite
space retains everything: Every quality you can imagine
such as love, joy, amusement, sadness, etc. I will elaborate
on these two powerful shifts below.
The first leap took place on November 8, 2006, in Sedona,
Arizona. I was in a workshop offered by my mentor. I
went through an amazingly deep mediation, where I lost
the sensation of my body and melted in the pure bright
white light. A blissful state during a meditation itself
was not so unique. I had had a similar delightful state
countless times prior to that particular meditation.
However, this experience was very unique in what occurred
after the meditation.
As I opened my eyes right after the mediation, it was
very difficult to locate myself because the spacious
sensation became totally different than before. When
I looked at the wall of the meeting room, I was so astounded.
I perceived the wall itself visually and I knew that
the wall stood in front of me; however, I sensed the
spacious extension beyond the wall, as if nothing stood
there. When I touched the wall to confirm its existence,
I became more bewildered. The physical sensation of
touch suggested the wall was there; however, I clearly
sensed my body penetrated the wall. Then, I watched
the palm of my hand. I was startled by the spacious
expansion inside my hand, as if the whole universe dwelled
in my hand. Then, I looked at the chair I sat on, a
bag I brought in, people near me, and so forth. Everything
I saw retained the infinite space in itself. This sensation
was like a single bottle of water in front of you contained
the entire ocean.
I mumbled to myself, “What is happening here?”
I felt everything was bigger than its appearance. Everything
around me had its own shape, but the surface line which
determined its shape seemed not to separate itself from
others. Everything was infinite. Everything overlapped
each other. Everything was merged into one. I asked
myself: “Am I experiencing Oneness that the Sages
points out as an enlightened state?”
On top of that, I realized this spacious expansion
did not vanish, even a minute later, an hour later,
and hours later. My spacious sensation has not returned
back to the state I used to maintain before that November.
Since then, the intensity of spacious expansion varies
from day to day and moment to moment. However, every
time I close my eyes and tap in my inward deeply, I
could notice the infinite expansion within myself, even
today. When I tune in objects around me, I still can
feel the universe within them. My conscious field becomes
amazingly elastic or flexible. I could expand it in
a way I want. I feel I can touch the edge of cosmos
instantaneously, when I have an intention to do so.
The second leap arose in June 2007. I attended a meditation
retreat offered by the same mentor. The intention, at
this series of meditations, was to allow the essence
of myself present itself, and to completely surrender
myself into the essence. I fully attuned to the life
force energy in me by allowing it happen, and giving
myself total permission to receive and feel it. To place
myself in a complete surrendering state, I was doing
nothing, thinking nothing, expecting nothing, waiting
for nothing, and resisting nothing. Within such a state,
I noticed something was emerging within me. I touched
something existing there in me, which had qualities
of peacefulness, quietness, stillness, joyfulness, dynamic
vibration and resonance.
A peaceful state during a meditation was not rare at
all. This experience was special in a sense that I touched
the very source of blissfulness. As an energy healer,
I can tell what kind of energy I am resonated with.
However, at that time, I could not figure it out at
all. I felt I was experiencing something deeper than
the “life force energy.” What I experienced
was not the healing energy like Reiki, not the transformational
energy like Deeksha, not the vital vibration like Kundalini.
The energetic space I was in was totally empty as well
as filled with lot of beautiful qualities that I mentioned
above. It was static as well as dynamic. It had complete
silence and vital vibration. It was totally new as well
as very familiar. It was focal as well as infinite.
Perhaps, what happened to me was that I sank in my consciousness
itself; which was non-dual, which was already there
to support me, and which presented the beautiful qualities
to me.
My awareness was cultivated into amazing height, width,
and depth. I felt that my infinite expansion was filled
with everything. As I stated in the above, I experienced
the infinitely expanding awareness in 2006. It was a
spacious explosion in and around me. Then, this second
leap made me realize that my infinite space contained
every quality I could imagine. The infinite space appeared
to be empty. However, I felt a lot of qualities there
in a tangible manner. If you are familiar with the Zero
point theory: a cubic meter of a physically completely
empty space (having no atom, no light, no sound, and
no radio wave. So, nothing there) is filled with the
great amount of energy enough to boil the whole ocean
of this planet, it may be easy for you to grasp my experience.
I realized that my conscious field was an empty infinite
space filled with everything.
As you can see, my consciousness has been shifted drastically
in the past few years. The way I experience, feel, and
taste the world has been transformed. The way I view
the world is also changed. I become happier and happier,
day by day, because I am connected with and supported
by everything. I know, I am happy today and will be
happier tomorrow. The pains and sufferings become less
and less, because nothing is crucial in the infinite
space (If you are infinite, what do you need to be scared
of?). Every aspect of my life appears to be filled with
joy, and I can feel it. The world appears to be brighter
and brighter day by day, even though the daily news
is filled with sad and gloomy tragedies. I become a
totally new person every day and I am living in a totally
new world every day.
My clients have noticed my change. They are feeling
much deeper bliss through my healing sessions and meditations.
At a certain point, I realized that I was really good
at embracing them with the infinite space I had been
experiencing. I found that I could share the infinite
non-dual state with my clients and students. I do not
know how I am doing it, but I naturally get it and present
it somehow. When I have an intention to bless my clients
with the infinity, they feel profound peacefulness and
joyfulness. This leads to my current healing style and
workshop: Formless
Healing and the Infinite
Consciousness Seminar. These seminars are to achieve
healing and conscious shift by embracing them with the
energetic infinite space. Please click the titles to
learn more about them.
My Spiritual Journey
In my childhood, I was a kid who was always wondering
what was real and what was unreal. A kid in fantasy
is not so unusual, dreaming of Santa Claus or believing
in super heroes like Super Man. I was an ordinary boy,
playing with such symbolic figures in an imaginary world.
However, I was unique because I was always analyzing
the imaginary world very deeply, and was trying to figure
it out how the imaginary world intersects with this
three dimensional actual reality. I was always asking
myself like, “If Santa Clause is real, how I could
prove it?” “Where am I going after I die?”
“How can my body travel into the other dimensions?”
“If I were born under different parents, how I
would be different?” and so on. My concern was
always around how I could determine the reality. Other
than that tendency, I was not aware of any special spirituality
in me. I was neither an indigo child who can foresee
the future, nor a psychic who could see a ghost. Looking
back at my childhood, I would say the effort to know
the reality at that time created the foundation for
my spiritual journey today.
In my adolescence, I was playing sports very seriously,
rugby football at high school and racing ski at college.
I was drawn to the body-mind connection to maximize
performance of mine and of my team mates. Even though
I was the smallest player in the football team, I became
the best tackler by repeating the mental training every
day. It was primarily a visual training, imagining that
I smashed an opponent very hard. I was eventually placed
in the regulars. I was involved in the college ski team
as a trainer and introduced a lot of mental trainings
into the ski team: mental rehearsal, positive thinking,
and visual training and so on. The ski team miraculously
won many competitions. From those experiences, I really
learned that the mind power could enhance the physical
potential. The human body is more than the machine made
of muscles and bones.
After graduation at the college in Japan, attaining
B.A. in Economics, I worked for the Sumitomo Bank (currently,
Sumitomo Mitsui Banking Corporation) for six years.
I experienced the international banking business, particularly,
foreign currency bond deals. Leaving my job in 1996,
I moved to the U.S. and matriculated the College of
Environmental Science and Forestry, State University
of New York, and the Maxwell School of Citizenship and
Public Affairs, Syracuse University. In 2003, I accomplished
both the MPS in Environmental Science and the MA in
International Relations.
In my studies, I was focused on environmental philosophy
from the standpoint of transpersonal psychology. I eventually
noticed that a dualistic idea separating a human (the
Self) from Nature (Others) is the profound cause of
any environmental issues. The problem is, in my eyes,
that modern man has conceptually externalized Nature.
Nature is simply “there” as resources to
be exploited, even though it should be internalized
as the inseparable basis of our being. I became eager
for the higher state of consciousness that could integrate
Man and Nature.
To seek that level of consciousness, which is non-dual,
it appeared natural for me to turn my attention from
the field of environmental philosophy, where the intellectuals
argue the consciousness logically, to the field of health,
where I could verge on the consciousness practically.
I believed that the Unified Consciousness embracing
the Self and Others leads to the realization for sick
individuals, that their way of being is larger than
they think. Thereby, this expanded identity would help
to relieve their mental pains; possibly, help to overcome
the fear of death.
After realizing my interests on the health field, my
father was diagnosed with lung cancer at the terminal
stage in the spring of 2002. I delayed my graduate study
and went back to Japan to help my father. Doing a lot
of research on alternative medicine, I aided my father
in forming a protocol in a holistic fashion, which involved
radiation therapy, Chinese herbs, Qi-gong therapy, and
Lymphokine Activated Killer Therapy. It worked well
to improve his quality of life; however, my father could
not bear the fear of death and mentally collapsed, then
passed away in August 2002. Beyond the pain of loss
of my father, I grasped something important; what was
missing in the treatment for father. I continued my
exploration on alternative medicine, and finally, Energy
Healing caught my attention to fill the missing part.
Needless to say, the loss of my father became a huge
turning point to me, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually.
After completing my graduate study, I did not step
into an arena of environmental politics. Instead, I
decided to become a holistic healer, utilizing the modalities
of Energy Healing. Along with the training, I dedicated
myself to elevating my own consciousness.
Since January 2004, I have learned a lot of healing
modalities, which are primarily energy based, such as
Reiki, Karuna Reiki, Healing with the Sound of Light
(synthesizing various frequencies of healing energy),
Thought Field Therapy, Akashic Record Reading, Clairvoyant
Reading, ARCH, Deeksha, Spiritual/Intuitive Counseling
under Pamela Arwine, Laurie Grant, Debra Katz, Lawrence
Lanoff and Jonathan Parker. I began to serve my clients
professionally exercising those skills in August 2004.
If you are interested in the healing skills I learned,
please go to: Training
I Went Through.
In brief, I began my spiritual journey, being motivated
to become a powerful healer. This is my personal belief
that the healing capability is a byproduct of the enlightenment.
The more I become open to the Divine, the more I could
utilize the Divine healing power. I tried to shift the
level of my consciousness in order to better serve people.
I received healing sessions for more than thousands
hours from my mentors and colleagues. I believed that
I would reach the enlightened state by energetically
clearing my issues, which are energetic burdens, such
as: the childhood abuse I received, the pain of divorce
from my ex-wife, the grief of loss of my father, the
confrontation with my brothers etc. As I could release
all of them, I would become a very pure and innocent
being. The central theme at that time, around 2004,
was clearing myself to become enlightened.
This motivation to become a powerful healer through
clearing myself was not wrong in itself. However, I
found the necessity to change my direction. At a certain
point, I realized that any issues or pains are, in an
ultimate sense, all illusions. They are all the mind’s
creations. Say, the childhood abuse, the sensation of
being beaten up by my father is nothing more than the
memory. It was an actual event, but now it is simply
a memory or a picture in my head. However, my mind reacts
to it and I am terrified even now as if he were attacking
me at this present moment. The attempt to heal such
a pain does not work well, because the violence which
my mind believes is happening now does not really exist
in the present. I cannot fix something which does not
exist now. Worse, the attempt to heal creates the internal
conflicts: healthy self vs. unhealthy self. Illness,
disease, fear, anger, or pain are states of my being,
not good or bad. When I fight against my issue by labeling
it “something to be fixed,” I create the
energetic battle field and the energetic tension in
myself. This internal battle worsens the issue or pain.
I eventually found that it is much more helpful to regain
the wellness and wholeness, if I realize the illusionary
nature of my issue. Therefore I do not need to fight
against my issue. I need to look at my issue from a
higher perspective by shifting my consciousness.
In 2005, I was inclined to the approach of non-resistance,
non-fighting, doing nothing or surrendering. I stopped
fighting with my issues, and I just observed my issues
by surrendering the need to heal myself. Paradoxically,
when I dropped the need to heal, my whole energetic
systems become wide open and thereby allow the life
force energy to actively run through my being and allow
my internal wisdom to flourish.
This is not to say that the attempt of healing is meaningless.
I need to receive healing to observe my issue from the
space of non-resistance. When I am experiencing the
actual pain, suffering, anxiety, or depression at intense
level, my attention is drawn to them, and I could hardly
observe them with a clear and calm mind. I need to ease
the pain to a certain extent, so that I could tune in
my inward divinity very deeply. Again, for instance,
the issue of my childhood trauma, the violence from
my father, even though it is an illusion that I feel
as if he were attacking me now, the pain I sense is
real in my body. That means, I am resonated with the
vibration of pain, while its source is not real. The
tool of energy healing is useful to calm down that vibration
of pain. When that vibration is softened, I could observe
the picture of knuckles of my father peacefully and
could realize that I do not need to be frightened now.
What I needed to do was healing my issues without fighting
against them. The key is a mindset that wishes better
wellness with equanimity.
I reached the important realization that the profound
healing is achieved through transformation (shifting
your consciousness). When you look at your issue from
the higher awareness, you will find that you do not
have any issues. At the same time, the transformation
is achieved through healing. To look at the issue from
that higher space, you need to ease the issue so that
you can relax yourself and release any self-protection.
Then, I decided to offer both healing and enlightenment.
The approach I am employing is: doing nothing by trusting
the Divine and the process, and affirming yourself by
forgiving everything. Doing nothing for your fulfillment
may sound bizarre, but from an energetic standpoint,
it makes sense. When you are open and free completely,
having no resistance toward anything, you will be always
aligned with the very source of vitality of your life.
This approach has been built up with the help of my
two primal mentors, Jonathan Parker and Lawrence Lanoff.
Jonathan calls in the quality of Nothingness
and lets Nothingness surround your resistance
to the issue through his mediation and his healing session.
Within that space of Nothingness, your internal
glue like force that causes you to hold on to the issue
dissolves into Nothingness. Lawrence is presenting
the process oriented healing, where you melt into the
process and let the process take care of the whole healing.
These two mentors, in some sense, are doing nothing
to help people. This non-resistance approach becomes
the foundation for my spiritual growth and for my service
to my clients and students.
Where am I? Where
am I going?
Am I enlightened? The honest answer to it is: “I
do not know.” I do not feel I am enlightened.
I am still dealing with my pains and sufferings mentioned
somewhere above. I am still afraid of dying. If I were
truly enlightened, I am supposed to completely detach
myself from the fears, and liberalize myself from pains.
Is that right? When I encounter a jerk who annoys me,
I still react emotionally. An enlightened master is
supposed to be non-reactional. I love rock’n’roll,
although an enlightened person must love quietness.
By comparing the general descriptions on the state of
enlightenment with my current state, I could hardly
define myself as enlightened.
However, as I stated in the above, all of my pains
and sufferings becomes significantly reduced than before.
I am very happy now. I am pleased and comfortable with
who I am now. I know I have pains and sufferings and
I know that they are all illusions. When I feel a certain
pain, I know that I project a source of intimidation
onto the outer world. When I get angry, I could happily
utilize that energy for my pleasure. I become very honest
and natural toward myself, thereby to others as well.
In some sense, I am not trying to eliminate my pains.
What I am doing is nothing. It is not giving up, but
is passionate equanimity. I am really enjoying paradoxical
process of my evolution. The more I surrender, the more
I am fulfilled. I am neither reactive nor passive, but
I am actively creating my universe with surrendering
its outcome to the Divine.
What I want now is to assimilate that paradoxical process
of doing nothing or of surrendering even further and
deeper. Through it, I want to become much happier, loving
myself much purer and loving others. I do not feel a
sort of direction or life purpose to pursue. Currently,
I do not see any spiritual path to seek. When I tune
in my inner world, a sense of joy naturally flourishes.
Putting myself in the surrendering state, I am becoming
open, expanded, and blissful. This is my sincere desire
is to share my experience with people like you. I believe
I could serve you very well based on my actual experience
of Nothingness, my religious wisdom in Buddhism, my
academic familiarity in transpersonal psychology, and
the plenty of experiences of healing sessions with my
clients. I want to be a resource for your inner growth,
fulfillment, happiness, joy and health.
Love
Masaru Kato
Hoffman Estates,
February 2008.
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